CD16..The Difference of 24 hours

So my body is well and truly screwing with my mind.  OPK today was strong but not positive.  Overnight we've gone from unfertile to really very fertile and I dare say I'll get a positive tomorrow or Saturday at the latest.

I'm stunned.

If I get it tomorrow then this will be the most regular that I have been since I was a teenager. You know, before nine years of hormonal contraceptives!

I struggled yesterday.  I think it was the idea that something was not working. I have all the patience in the world if my body works. If there is no reason for things not to work then I am happy to hit it until it does.  When I think there is something wrong I become driven to fix it NOW.  It's irrational and crazy.

Do I think we can win like this? IDK.  The 11 day LP is the thing which bugs me. I feel like maybe we can but I am not super confident. Last time I got my faint positive on 11DPO but I had a 13 day LP on Clomid without any spotting.  I guess we will see. 

Part of me is not so secretly hoping that we can pull a one hit wonder.  It would all time out perfectly.  The due date for AF falls on a doctor's appointment for DS to get his 12 months immunisations.  I could get my referral to my OBGYN at the same time.  I would love to believe I could be so lucky.  Getting a bit ahead of myself.  Need to get some BD done today and/or tomorrow first!

Got a bit drunk last night. I'm soft now. Literally a glass of wine did it and then I had another.  Broke one of my rules and told two close folks that we are trying.  It's ok though. Neither of them are going to be trying within the next 12 months.  I know I'm sucked into this already so I am working on how to keep my head straight while we try.  Not feeling like we are screwing around wasting time will help. 

I've been thinking about the timeline.  I decided a while back that I wouldn't go back for Clomid until after my fitness comp unless my LP dropped below 10 days.  I am thinking I might also add in provision for if I ovulate later than CD23 although I think rubbish LP goes with that anyway.  What I am also thinking is that I may wait it out for one year. Maybe.  Looking at the FF charts, 12 months does look like a reasonable expectation rather than six.  But I guess it depends on where my head is at come November this year.  If I'm still pretty relaxed then I'll wait.  If I've already gotten to "I want it NOW" stage then I'll go back before.

The other thing that I have changed my mind about is the sharing of information.  There are two lovely ladies in my triad. If they ask, I will tell.  If they don't, then they will find out if/when we fall pregnant again.  I'm using my old FF account as I still have VIP membership days.  I haven't completely covered my tracks.  Only one of them is potentially likely to discover it.  She may not say anything. Everyone else will know nothing...