4DPO

Done with temping.  Waking up so much worrying about temping at the right time after enough sleep is just plain draining and inconvenient.  Only going to do the week around ovulation...if I end up keeping it up.

Temp was up high this morning. Higher than I've ever seen it. But my sleep was crap and I've had some gut trouble today.  Although, the other interesting thing is that I've had some distinct cramping.  LOL Symptom watch much??  Too early for implantation in theory. With all my mad looking at FF and Google, it could be something or it could be nothing. It started during my cardio. I couldn't ignore it.  I feel bad for stopping. I wasn't going to let TTC get in the way of life but I had a "what if?" moment or three. 

Now that the ovulation craziness has passed, I'm feeling quite stable...oddly.  It might be temporary. I don't feel that whole "It hasn't worked" stressed.  I feel perfectly calm.  I'm not sure if its a good thing or not in terms of pregnancy but if I can be like this all the time, it will make this journey much easier.  I have a bit of this feeling like I need to savour this trying experience because we probably won't do it again. We probably won't have a third so pregnancy will be something to savour and every bit of that newborn stage...well, so long as they are not an unsettled, unhappy baby.

I'll have work to keep my mind busy until the start of next week and then I'll be on underwear watch until Wednesday. LOL!  FF says my test day is Tuesday but that would be based on old cycle information.  Wednesday is it unless I just somehow know. (haha)