Second Thoughts

I have second thoughts a lot.  Today has been no different.  But I wonder if it is like the financial thing. People always told me that we should not wait to get on top of the mortgage cause it won't happen in a reasonable timeframe so it is better just to do it and we will cope.  This has been true.  Not well enough for me to be a SAHM but well enough that I only have to do a little supplemental work to keep our bank accounts chugging along.  We've coped just fine despite many anxieties I had when pregnant. Perhaps this is the same...that if I forever wait for when I think the little man will be more ideal, it just will never happen.  Would that be a bad thing?  Not entirely.  Would I regret it?  Yeah, I suspect so.

I have to admit that I've been rubbish with remembering to take my elevit.  My head is clearly not in the headspace.  What is the head space though?  Is it that obsessed blinkered state of existence?  No. Surely not?  Surely there is something in between?  Committed but relaxed?  Do I know how to do that? *shrug*  Perhaps this is the best way to be?

Currently sitting on what I believe is 8DPO. Got a little concerned a few days ago as I had a distinctive AF type feeling.  Wondering if that will translate to a short LP. Guess I'll find out soon enough.

Feeling really lacklustre.  Enjoying my physical persuits at the moment and feel like doing this is a form of self-sabotage.  Seriously considering putting off for another month... or maybe more.