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Thursday, March 22, 2012

Of Course...

I didn't expect to answer my own question so soon.  I logged onto FB last night and hit one of my mothers group pages, only to be greeted by a surprise BFP announcement.  Cue that feeling like you've just had a 10m vertical drop...followed by an intense desire to make sure DH would know EXACTLY what days were are going to be DTD.  Hummmm. I recognise this.  This is not a fertility related thing so much as a competitive thing.  Someone else has something I want and have beaten me to it. LMAO!  That's ok.  I can deal with that.  There are another two who are trying. One who I am sure won't have to "try" and the other is questionable.  Then in the other group there are three or four who are jumping on the TTC train within the next few months.  It is going to get very hot in here soon.

On further contemplation of my current situation I have changed my mind about one thing.  If we hit six unsuccessful cycles before November, I'm going to wait until after November to go back to my OBGYN.  November I have an annual fitness competition.  The last two years I've been written off being preggo or post baby.  This year, if the opportunity does present, I want to be competitive.  I don't want to be getting into fertility treatments that screw with my mindset when competing.  I don't want put in eight months of hard work to then miss out by a month and be stuck on a heart rate limit etc.  Selfish?  Yeah maybe.  But I am done with putting my life on hold for TTC.  I feel like I've lost a big chunk of my life to that in the past and I'm not doing that again.  I realise that I am working in two direction at the same time but we managed it last time when I was smashing pre-workout supplements and flogging my body physically so we can do it again.  My sub-fertility woes are not a product of my physical exertion.

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